Artemis’s poem draws on her expertise influenced by nervousness, performing through her inner thoughts, and ending with a hope for self-acceptance and coexistence with nervousness.
mediocrity is my illness
a two-day-previous coffee
consume it –
and leftover instant noodle soup
conserve it –
i could not bear to toss out
i could not bear myself
want aching and straining out of me
i am fervidly unwell
i am in a closed room
there is no window, no doorway
substantially much easier to spatter myself
on wall and on floor
sure, i am embedded now
a shrine for myself now
and i am on all fours begging
curled up and shrivelling
who am i calling for?
the moon is my deity
i am used to edges, constantly on the brink
pressed into the flat outline of a yellow wildflower –
the solar will not increase.
so i need to master to really like grey skies
and wanton clouds mirrored off the window reverse mine
and me, reflected off the window reverse mine
Artemis Lam is a 3rd-12 months English Literature scholar at Durham University. She is an advocate for open and sincere discussions on psychological wellbeing, as nicely as a literary illustration of these encounters. When she is not reading or creating poetry, she can ordinarily be identified in the fitness center or indulging in her mildly worrying habit to espresso.